..i walk with the Lord...
.......he is my love..........
.....my strength.......
......my life.......
....my best friend...


Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Screw it all

so yesterday i was totally having a "screw it all" day... i woke up late, almost missed breakfast..went to class... it sucked all we did was take notes and i got a "B" on my test...went to my next class.. had to do a mock interview..which would have been fine but aparently the job i was applying for was some jobe at UNL.. UNIVERSITY OF NEBRASKA LINCOLN.. SCREW THAT!! freaking big red.. really? anyway and then... this is where i really got pissed.. went to my next class and the work i have to do for a 1 credit class. really? Workout journals..food diaries...freaking hard quizes..paragraphys about my physical activity over break.. "Hmmm so i layed on the beach! how is that for frickin physical activity.." i mean really? that professor needs to get a life besides our 1 credit lifetime wellness class...next i come back to my room and have to argue with people i'm giving a ride to the airport about what time i'm leaving for the airport.. i'm pretty sure it is my car and i'm driving so i will leave WHEN EVER I WANT!!! ugh.. and then ofcourse since i'm in nebraska the weather SUCKED...gah the crap i deal with.. so ya basically i was in the whole mind set of.. spring break is here and so screw nebraska and concordia and school.. seriously all the people around here need to get a life.....................................................

but then my whole life picked up all of a sudden.. i pulled on my running shoes and went outside (into the freezing cold weather) and just ran.. ahhhh what a stress relief let me tell you:) so working out really helped but then me and britt made dinner and sheesh it was like i totally forgot all the crap of the day.. we enjoyed some amazing REAL FOOD (not nasty janzow crap) and ate an icecream pie that had 460 calaries in 1/6th of the pie.. WE ATE THE WHOLE THING!!! YUMMMM haha.. sometimes you just have to not worry about that kind of stuff. what is life without a little extra ice cream pie=) haha.. and then we pretty much just sat around for like 2 hours and enjoyed the company.. gosh it is so great to have people that actually like care about what your saying and pay attention to you and are there because they care about you and because they truely enjoy being with you... there are so many FAKE people and i HATE it.. why be fake? do you really want people to like for who you are or who you wish you were? i mean what is the point.. sooner or later your real side is going to come out and you really want people to see that after they already have this memory of you being fun and nice and polite??? FAKE PEOPLE GROW UP!!

ok so ya i pretty much had to vent about how gay some people are...:) i'm all done now.. so basically be real.... don't live in NEBRASKA...don't go to school at CONCORDIA UNIVERSITY...and make friends that love you for who you are because they are the ones that will really matter in the end :)

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

A Valentines Day Prayer

A Valentines Day Prayer

Cari Lynn

Amazing Woman

She loves with all her heart

How was i blessed this richly God

I will not understand, but will be grateful

She is everything i have ever dreamed of

How do i make her feel beautiful today

God, grant me strength for my love

Because i am weak without you

My heart overflows with her

Be my rock, my comfort

Because as I need you

She also needs me

In Jeasus' name,

Be with her

Hold her


This is what Jason gave me or valentines day, a poem written by him. I have been so blessed to have such an amazing, God fearing man put in my life. I think every day about how much God has given me and i just can't seem to get my head wrapped around the fact that i was this richly blessed. I will take jason though without any complaints. He is the exact person i want to spend the rest of my life with and i am so happy i didn't have to do awhole lot of searching. HOW LUCKY AM I??? :) XOXOXO

Rejoice in your Suffering

"We also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disapoint us, because God has poured out is love into our hears by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us." - Romans 5:3-5

When i'm going through a hard time it is so easy for me to blame it on everybody or everything instead of actually dealing with it. When i read this verse it makes me rethink complaining. Here it says to be grateful for the hard times we go through because it teaches us perseverance and character and hope. I have days that nothing seems right, i have long, boring classes or i don't get along with people but now i realize that God is simply puting those speed bumps in my life to make me slow down and realize who i am. The other day i got in a fight with a girl over something that was completely pointless and afterwards she was just plain rude to me. I on the other hand picked my head up said "screw you" and went on with my day. It was a sunny day and i wasn't going to let some stupid argument with someone stupid person ruin my day. I see now that i was developing character. That's who i am. i don't let stupid small stuff get to my head because in the big picture it has no meaning. Next i see that hope comes in because i can only hope that people will see how i handle situations like that and realize that being the bigger man/women is the way to be. next time someone is pushing your buttons don't be afraid to be who you are because God made you just that way.