..i walk with the Lord...
.......he is my love..........
.....my strength.......
......my life.......
....my best friend...

[NO TURNING BACK]

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

time for a change

well everybody.. i am moving to wordpress..i like blogger, but wordpress seems to have alot more stuff for bloggers sooooo yea.. if you want to follow me here ya go -

http://carilynncomerford.wordpress.com/

check it out:)
xoxo

Thursday, August 11, 2011

you never stop learning..

i've been in Australia now for 6 weeks.. a month and a half. how CRAZY is that? Its so hard for me to believe. I love it, but at the same time i am so incredibly homesick:( even though Australia is not a third world country, it is different enough that i have begin to miss all the blessings of America..

I am so grateful i have Jason here to keep me sane and feeling safe.

This week my eyes were opened to alot of things. We learned about relationships, and i could tell you for hours about all the things i learned.

But as much as i learned and could tell you, it is SO hard to get it out on paper.
I did come to the realization that God has blessed me with some amazing relationships in my life, and i need to learn to be grateful for them, i need to love more, listen better, and show them i care.

Saturday, July 23, 2011

Its a beautiful day..

Well my friends, it is a beautiful day on Sunny Coast Australia!!

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Speak to my heart

These are quotes or bible verses from the week that really spoke to me:)

"So is my word that goes out from my mouth: It will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which i sent it." Isaiah 55:9-11

"I have loved you with an everlasting love; i have drawn you with loving - kindness." Jeremiah 31:3


"It does not matter what you think, or what happens in life - God is still God, and He is good." -Rose Mu

"God's character is something that we cannot understand, but need to learn to accept."

"One thing God has spoken, two things have I heard: that you , O God, are strong." -Psalm 62:11


Fear will not stop hunting us down, but God will deliver us every single time.

Jesus had to be the one to save us on the cross because he must be Eternal, Sinless, Willing, and Human.

If someone gives us a car, we might say we want to take them out for dinner atleast.. if someone gives us a house, we want to give them a gift or some money... Jesus gave us his LIFE.. how do you ever repay a life? especially when he says he doesn't want anything in return..


"God is not absent from the affairs of men, but rather, man is often absent from the affairs of God."

-Choices imply decisions.
-Decisions form habits.
-Habits form character.
-Character decides your destiny..

Carry my Load

God is a burden bearer. As humans, we all have struggles. My burdens range from how am I going to afford rent this month, to what am I going to do with my life? Last year I spent months trying to find a house to live in when I return for school in January from Australia. During 4 months I looked at about 20 houses, went through 3 sets of roommates, failed way too many tests, fundraised $23,000 for YWAM and struggled in my relationship with Jason. Everything felt SO overwhelming. How was I ever going to deal with all of this by myself? The future seemed so stressful and such a burden. But God says in Matthew 11:28 and 29 that he will take our burden upon himself and give us rest. I really turned to God in this time in my life because I realized that I certainly couldn’t handle all these burdens myself. Mark 14:36 says, “Abba, Father, everything is possible for you. Take this cup from me. Yet not what I will, but what you will.” When we turn every part of our lives over to God, he carries all our weight. I am still without a house, but I have the greatest roommate I could ask for, I fundraised the YWAM support, I still passed college with honors, and Jason and I are doing better than ever before. “Praise be to the Lord, to God our Savior, who daily bears our burdens.” God is strong, and he can handle way more than we ever could.

Saturday, July 9, 2011

Follow me!

Hey friends! I set a blog ONLY for my trip to Australia.. so follow that if you want to get the deep heart felt stuff about my trip! THANKS! love you all=]

http://downunderwithcari.blogspot.com/

Where do i go from here?

I'm in Australia...
I've been here for a week now and it has been a week full of learning, emotion, love, sadness, amazement, frustration, excitment, and newness...
I left everything i knew and came to Australia where i knew nothing, nobody but Jason, and had no idea what i had to look for..
I miss my family..
but i love my new family..
I miss my friends...
but love my new friends..
I miss Colorado...
but i am falling in love with Australia!!
I miss comfort...
but i LOVE having to step out of my comfort zone and live a new life..

I have already learned so much about God and his love for me...
We learned about the cost of discipleship, and it was crazy to really get it knocked into my head that no matter how many good works we do, that is completely un necessary! God gave us eternity in heaven and sent His Son.. for FREE!! For nothing!! He doesn't want anything from us other than love and a life lived for him..

How amazing of a God do we serve?

If everybody could do YWAM DTS i would tell them to do it in a second...I LOVE it and its only been a week... thats my life for now...enjoy the pics:)
Maroochydore, Aus
Our first local outreach was going to a skate competition put on by the "Board Store" which is one of YWAM's ministries over here.. They are trying to make it one of the biggest skate competitions in Australia, so it would be a huge way for God to work here in Australia! We prayed, handed out bibles, talked to locals, and helped with registration. Pray that God will move in skater's hearts!

Coolum, Australia

Saturday, June 18, 2011

Dedication

I have to dedicate this post to a Man..a friend..a love that has stuck by me through thick and thin...We have had rough days.. really rough.
and we have had AMAZING days.. really amazing.
But, through those goods and bads, ups and downs, thick and thins love has prevailed. Sometimes..and alot more lately, i have wondered how and why, BUT every time without fail the love and dedication we have to each other shines through the clouds of hurt, pain, anger, and frustration.
This is to Jason Frink who has been my love since i was 15 years old.. 4 years and 8 months later we have been pushed to the edge, hurt alot, but loved more.
I love you J!

Summer Nights

If every summer night was a night just like tonight...
i would be one happy camper♥

Saturday, June 11, 2011

I'm Falling Apart


rain

I can't seem to get a break..
Actually i can.. break..break..broken
Just when life and all it contains seems so perfect...
Just when it seems i have gotten to that place of pure happiness and joy and excitement..
It rains and it pours all over again..

Thursday, June 2, 2011

S.U.M.M.E.R

Well my dear friends...
I made it to summer and i've been livin it up since that final final for the next 8 months!!
So here is an update on what has happened in the past 4 weeks:
Week 1:
FINALS!! BOOOOO..
But i finished.. maybe not with a bang like i had hoped to, but i am officially an upperclassman!
We packed.. packed some more.. and packed some more:)
and had fun=]
OOh and i got a perm!!
Week 2:



We drove..drove..and drove..ALOT MORE!
We drove from Fort Collins, Colorado to Willis, Texas [yes texas:(]
It was a safe drive..thank you Jesus.. and we got to stop at sonic..and bucees!
While in texas we went to church..hello texans!
We drove to Galveston, and on the way back took a little detour to the hospital:(
I got to see one of my good friends Hannah Montana.
We ate "real" texas BBQ
Went Bowling
RODE JET SKIs!!
Ran [a little]
ate lots of good food..
and lived it up with one of the most awesome families i could ask for God to put in my life:)
Week 3:


I hopped on a plane and jetted back up to the beautiful state of Colorado..hello heaven!
Did more packing, and ditched that apartment complex FOREVER!
Drove to Westcliffe and got to see my wonderful family!
Drove BACK to Denver for a rockies game.. but we lost.. boooooo!
Fundraised and sent out about a bajillion letters..
Week 4:
Work..Fundraise..Work..Fundraise..
Dentist.
God is going to do awesome things in our lives with our YWAM trip to Australia!!
We need to fundraise about $11,000 more dollars before we leave on July 1st.. and i am SO excited to see how God is going to provide!
So there is an update on my past month=]
hectic?
YES!
Fun?
YES!
DRIVE MUCH??
YESSSSS!!
Miss my best friend?
YESSS=[
Spend time with Jason??
YESS=]
thats all for now folks:)

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Brendan James- Let it rain



bring it on life.. With God at my side i can take on anything! throw it all at me..

Sunsets

you must be starting to ask yourself.. "Does Cari like sunsets, or what is her problem?"
yes, i do LOVE sunsets.. here are just a few that are still on my computer and not my hard drive;]
"The city does not need the sun or the moon to shine on it, for the glory of God gives it light." Revelation 21:23
"There will be no more night. They will not need the light of a lamp or the light of the sun, for the Lord God will give them light. And they will reign for ever and ever." Revelation 22:5
"The sun rises and the sun sets, and hurries back to where it rises." Ecclesiastes 1:5
"Sunsets are so beautiful, its almost as if we are looking through the gates of Heaven."
"It is almost impossible to watch a sunset and not dream."
"The sunrise is God's greeting, the sunset is His signature."
God is the most perfect, most detailed, most incredible artists i know..
Every night, weather its snowing, raining, or shining, he is paint a sunset for somebody somewhere.
"The Lord gives strength to his people, the Lord blesses his people with peace."
Psalm 29:11
"Your love, O Lord, reaches to the heavens, your faithfulness to the skies." Psalm 36:5
"Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing i desire besides you." Psalm 73:25
"How lovely is your dwelling place, O Lord Almighty!" Psalm 84:1

do you have any question in your mind if i LOVE sunsets? particularly taking pictures of them=]

Is that light?

Is that light that i see at the end of the tunnel??
could it be true that i have finals next week and then it is summer?
Is that even possible that this horrible semester is almost over?

I do believe it is.. i think i can see the light at the end of the tunnel!
TO DO LIST:
1) write a 15-20 page technical manual
2) do a dumb assignment with pivot tables for CIS
3) Extra Credit quiz for business law
4) Accounting Final
5) Statistics Final
6) JTC Final
7) Business Information Systems
8) [last but not least] Business Law Final

yes my dear friends that is my to do list in the next 10 days..
see what i mean!?!? LIGHT.. I SEE LIGHT!!

On another note.. we have infact found a house for next year.. PRAISE GOD!
I completed another half marathon..without too much pain.. in 2:08.. PRAISE GOD!
I have recieved a more YWAM money!! PRAISE THE LORD GOD ABOVE..

i'm starting to think maybe YWAM and CSU are in God's plan.. now for one last area of my life i can't seem to figure out.. but, God is good.. and in his time i will know his will:)

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Sometimes

Sometimes the ways of my God are hard to understand..
Sometimes its hard to see light at the end of the tunnel.
Sometimes its hard to see the rainbow after the storm.
And sometimes its hard to find joy in the pain..

But its in these times when you can't see the light or the rainbow or the joy that my God's light, love, mercy and grace really shine through.
Its in the hard times that he carries us.
Its when we are taken to our knees that we truly see the God that we live for.
Its the times when it feels you can't be brought down anymore that you turn to God and beg for mercy and healing.
When we are shattered in millions of pieces, it is then that God takes our brokenness and makes beauty and makes us whole again.

Sometimes its hard to understand God's timing.
Sometimes is hard to see why God allows things to happen.
Most of the time we have no idea what outcome to expect of the things that happen to us.
Most of the time we don't know what could happen in the next minute, hour, day, or year..

But it is these times that we learn to be patient.
It is in God's plan that we don't know what will happen.
We take chances, we take risks, we jump in head first, close our eyes, and BEG God to bring us back to the surface in one piece.
We don't know what to expect when we do things like this, all we can do is TRUST God to make the best of our ridiculous mistakes.

Over the last few months i have learned that...
Try as i might, what i want to think, feel, or happen will never end just the way i forsaw.
Try as i might, in the end it is ALWAYS God's will that will be done...
Try as i might to make things happen in MY time.. EVERYTHING is always God's time.. OUR time is God's time, and we couldn't speed that up or slow it down if we wanted to.
Try as i might to make things turn out just perfect, nothing is perfect unless God's hand is in it from start to finish..

So remember,
SOMETIMES it's not what we do that matters.. because more than sometimes, things won't happen just the way we want them to..
so more than SOMETIMES.. trust God

Monday, April 25, 2011

How do you say?

How do you tell someone you love with every ounce of your heart that right now is not the time? How do you tell someone that means the world to you that you can't be in their world right now?
How? How? How?
This question has my head and my heart spinning like a top out of control...

Sunday, April 24, 2011

He Is Risen

PIMPIN!! haha..dub C represent

"Why do you look for the living among the dead?"
This is what the angels asked when Mary showed up at the tomb wanting to see Jesus..
How incredible is it that our Savior has risen from the grave..

Died, was buried, and then a few days later, BAM "Hows it going guys.. you really thought i was gonna chill in that cold dark tomb for eternity?? NO THANK YOU!"

No other religion on earth could say that their faith, and their lives are based on someone who was whipped, spit on, mocked, NAILED to a cross, stabbed in the side, KILLED, and then rose from the grave..and that is a fact and a half right there...

Like a friend said, it is really really sad that we only celebrate such a momentous day for our faith, ONCE A YEAR.. i mean we are talking history here.. we are talking the impossible here.. we're talking Jesus.. i'm pretty sure he deserves alot more than just one lousy day in the beginning/middle/end of april [depending on this crazy year system] i mean i'm pretty sure we need to spend every day in awe of the fact that Jesus Christ rose from the grave.. particularly due to the fact that HE DID IT ALL FOR US!!! I mean dang, he went through that pain and suffering just so we wouldn't have to? He must have been outside his mind!! lol.. but really, this is no laughing matter, this is serious.. and i truly hope that you will spend your whole year praising God and thanking him for sending his Son for us, and not just one day a year..

incase ya'll are curious.. i spent Easter at home.. with my wonderful family=]
umm yea my brother is basically a stud;]
and the most BEAUTIFUL mother on earth!!

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Where is God?

"Even today my complaint is bitter; his hand is heavy in spite of my groaning.
If only I knew where to find him; if only i could go to his dwelling!
I would state my case before him and fill my mouth with arguments.
I would find out what he would answer me, and consider what he would say.
Would he oppose me with great power? No, he would not press charges against me.
There an upright man could present his case before him, and i would be delivered forever from my judge.

But if i go to the east, he is not there; if i go to the west, i do not find him.
When he is at work in the north, i do not see him; when he turns to the south, i catch no glimpse of him.

But he knows the way that i take; when he has tested me, i will come forth as gold.
My feet have closely followed his steps; i have kept to his way without turning aside.
I have not departed from the commands of his lips; i have treasured the words of his mouth more than my daily bread.
But he stands alone, and who can oppose him? he does whatever he pleases.
He carries out his decree against me, and many such plans he still has in store.
That is why I am terrified before him; when i think of all this, i fear him
God has made my heart faint; the almighty has terrified me.
Yet i am not silenced by the darkkness, by the thick darkness that covers my face."

God is hard to understand.
The book of Job has been bringing me alot of comfort recently..
Job went through many trials.. i am going through alot in life right now..
Here we see that Job has been worn down to the bone.. he is exhausted.. feels like God doesn't care about him, and hejust wants to give up. No matter where he turns he says he can't find God, not in the North, South, East, or West..But no matter what God can always see us. We aren't meant to see God or understand him. it is his job to see us always and understand us. God's ways will never be known to man here on earth. I can only hope that when i get to heaven He'll share some of these secrets with a sinner like me.. he'll tell me why he allowed me to be spread so thin..why he allowed me to try to walk my own walk without him.. Why doesn't God just reach down and put us on the right path? Because we need to figure it out for ourselves. i know i know.

Then Job points out that God stands alone..NOBODY can try to stand up to God.. we all know why the devil is in hell and not flying around in Heaven with the other angels. God does whatever he pleases..sometimes all we want to do is throw our hands up and say "God, I GIVE UP!".. would you believe that that is basically what he wants? ALL God desires is for us to give everything to him and trust him to deal with it.. so why is that so hard to do? I mean goodnight! We trust God with our lives right? [we don't really have any other option if you think about it.. if God wants us in Heaven.. BAM we'll be there no matter what we try to do to prevent it] thats another tangent.. anyway.. If we trust God with our lives, the LEAST we can do is trust him with finances, a house to live in, and relationships..

We serve a God that nobody on earth or anywhere could even begin to compare to. We don't know where he is, we don't know what he looks like, we don't know his thoughts, we down know his ways, basically we don't know anything.. and to think that God got mad cuz Adam and Eve ate the apple to gain wisdom.. man we didn't gain squat!! God is all knowing.. all powerful, and i would advise handing everything over to him.. cuz i sure don't want to deal with the consequences of trying to take it all on by myself..

Have FAITH.. God is out there even if you can't see Him..

Monday, April 18, 2011

He Carried Me

Life has been KICKING my butt lately..
that is it.. quite simply put..
I feel like i study study study for tests and i still fail them..2 to be exact..
I go to class and pay attention but that doesn't seem to do anything..
I've had papers due, i have speeches, i have a test tomorrow..
My roommates and i CAN NOT find a house.. i am really starting to feel like God is not calling me back to CSU. Don't you think he would provide a house if it was his will? We have to have looked at 20 houses.. 2 of which would be PERFECT but just won't work..due to other people already renting them, or this darn U+2 law Fort Collins has going on.
I don't know where God is leading me in certain relationships...
I don't now where God is leading me in life, or where i will get the $10,000 i still need for YWAM..particularly with some big financial deadlines coming around for YWAM.
I just don't know right now what i am supposed to be doing right now, and no matter how hard i pray and beg God to reveal his will to me, i just can't seem to understand!
Please pray for God's will to be come clear to me.
Pray for a clear heart and clear mind.
Pray for focus for the last 4 weeks of school.
Pray for the rest of my YWAM funds..Right now i almost wonder of it isn't God's will that i do YWAM, because wouldn't he provide what i need? Yes, he has been providing slowly.. but i'm saying i've received $2000 and i still need $10,000 and i only have 2 1/2 months left..
Pray for God to carry me..
thanks:)

I LOVE CSU!

Dear World, Today is in fact I LOVE CSU DAY. I want to make sure you all are aware of that, particularly because Colorado State University is the bomb diggity:)
why do i love CSU?
1. Awesome People
2. Fun rec center
3. In the beautiful state of Colorado
4. I'm proud to be a CSU Ram!
5. Beautiful Campus
6. CSU is in Fort Collins, and we all now the Fort is fun!
7. umm i've run out of reasons to list.. basically you should all love CSU too, because it is just so great:)
And no, this picture was not planned.. i guess this just gives me another reason to Love CSU, and that is because ALL MY FAVORITE people do too!

GO STATE!!

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Traveling and Best Friends..

My roommate's father is a pilot...
My roommate can fly basically anywhere on standby..
HOW AWESOME IS THAT? i'm pretty sure i would have traveled the world at this point. lol
so we've been discussing taking a week or two this summer before i jet off to Australia and before she starts work to do a little traveling..she flys free.. i fly on a buddy pass..

does it get much better than that? jetting around the world with my best girlfriend?? NO IT DOES NOT!!! hopefully it all works out.. and if it does.. any ideas on where to go??

We're lookin at the beautiful 808 state..
possibly tokyo...
man who knows where, the options are pretty much limitless!! haha YES I AM STOKED! now i just hope it all works out.. God willing:)

So speaking of this beautiful roommate.. i just want to say...

Brittany Mae Schuette I LOVE YOU TO DEATH..

this beautiful woman of God is there for me through the thick and thin. i've always had a hard time opening up to girls.. and i've never been able to have a close girlfriend because of all that horrible stuff that goes on between girls [backstabbing, boys, other girlfriends]
But Britt is different.. i couldn't ask God for a better roommate or friend to have in my life, and i will forever be grateful that i went to Concordia last year quite simply because it is there that i met one of my lifelong best friends...thank you God for blessings in disguise=]
i feel like i can spill my heart to this girl and she just loves me, hugs me, and encourages me no matter what it is.. she backs me 100%..she is like a sister to me...

"And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to His purpose for them." Romans 8:28

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

God's will

I am here to inform you that sometimes God's will is one of the hardest things on earth..in the universe to understand.
sometimes i feel like i can beg and beg and beg God to show me his will, but i never seem to hear Him or see what He is trying to tell me..

well i have to tell you that tonight that changed.
i don't know if what i did would be considered quite right.. or good.. but i did it. i was so fed up with feeling like God was NEVER talking to me, and he would never show me what i needed to do.. so i made him do something.. ok technically i didnt' make him do anything because us pathetic little human beans [yes i know that isn't how it is really spelled.. but i like it] couldn't make God do something if our life depended on it..

Basically i begged/told God that if he wanted me to make a certain pretty huge decision that he needed to send a beautiful shiny object sailing through the air and an unusually high speed.. and that would be my sign.. kind of like how noah got a rainbow.. well I my dear friends got a SHOOTING STAR..thank you God for revealing your will to me..

Sunday, April 3, 2011

a broken heart

have you ever felt your heart break??

I have....

It feels like you can't breathe..
It feels like your heart is being ripped out of your chest..

I am not talking about emotional pain..
I'm talking physical pain..
I'm talking about when it feels like you are dying.. but you really aren't.. its amazing that God could give us the kind of feeling to feel something that deep.. I can't imagine how He felt when He saw His son being ripped to pieces..

BUT He knew that His Son was coming up to spend forever with Him.. he found hope..

I know that this isn't forever... it is only temporary.. it is in that that i find my Hope..

God, in the darkness your light will shine through..

We are Meant to Live..

I think its safe to say blogging.. and anything that slightly resembles blogging..
homework, writing thank yous, reading, studying, has become an epic fail..

I feel like my life is flying by and leaving me in the dust.
How does that happen you might ask?

I feel like ever since i was 5 i have felt that pressure [just like any kid does] to know what i want to be..
I always get asked...
"What are you studying at CSU and why??"
"What do you want to do with your degree?"
"What do you want to do when you get out of school?"

And everybody's reaction when i reply
"I HAVE NO IDEA"
is...
"well don't worry, you still have a little time, but you're what? a sophomore in college? you need to decide soon!"

I have been thinking about life, school, my future, what i'm going to be doing 1 year, 5 years, 10 years..
...FOREVER...

I really struggle with focusing on school..I have never been the person who LOVES to go to school. I have never been the person who is even slightly interested in school. I have never been the person that knows exactly what i want to do and has know since i was 5..I do not feel like college is the place for me. I talk to God day and night begging him to show me where he wants me, and no matter how much i beg and plead, i DO NOT feel that God is calling me to be at school. I do not feel like i am meant to be living in an apartment on the corner of drake and shields, driving to class M-F, learning about accounting and business law, i don't believe God is calling me to stay in this place...

Most people want to be comfortable.. they want to know what will happen tomorrow and the next day..people don't want to worry about if they will have the money for food tomorrow, or if they will have a place to sleep at night, or if their house is nice enough to have friends over for dinner...

I am not like most people. In my talking to God i feel like i am called to be uncomfortable..i am called to MOVE..I am called to be the one that doesn't worry about what i will eat for dinner, or if I have a place to sleep, quite simply because i know and trust that God will provide it for me no matter where i am. My desire is to go out into the world and tell people about the love of my Savior. I have REALLY been feeling a calling to go to Hawaii and tell them about the Love of my life...After being over there for spring break i realize how many people over there claim to be Christians but they drink,burn,swear,sleep around.. and thats only the beginning..I have grown to LOVE the locals. and they have grown to accept me..they don't consider me a haole..i am one of them [i actually even got asked if i was part Hawaiian..ME..blone hair blue eyed me...LOVE IT!] And i really feel that i have grown to be accepted by them so that my Heavenly Father can use me to reach them with something they have never heard before..It is so hard for me to be excited about going to class and getting a degree when I don't feel like this is where i am meant to be...

but how do you tell people you love and love you..people that want you to be all you can be and graduate from college...people that want you to never have to struggle in any way... that college is not for you? that God is not calling you to live that life?

I have yet to figure this out....

Untill then i will continue to ask God for direction so that i can MOVE where i am at right now..

this takes me back to a post i did a few months ago..and it brings me to the question..
Do i want to LIVE or EXIST? where i'm at right now i feel as if i'm only existing...

.................................LIVE.........................................

Monday, March 28, 2011

oh life

well people.. it has been quite the last few weeks..life has been so full of ups and downs i just never know what the next day will bring...

at the beginning of break i was on one of the highest highs possible.. its hard to believe i wasn't even smokin anything to be this high.. lol.. so happy.. so satisfied with where i was at..

and then BAM.. spring break....

HAWAII!!!

not complaining AT ALL about the whole being in Hawaii thing.. it was one of the best weeks i've had in a long time.. spent the whole break jumping off cliffs..swimming into lava tubes [attempting to kill myself maybe? anyway it sure was suicide swimming in there]
THOUGHT I WAS GONNA MEET MY MAKER
riding mopeds.. which was a blast.. i think a may get one..SOON..
and cruzin with friends.. just livin the Hawaiian way of life..
but then BAM...
bad started with finding out a friends little 10 year old brother killed himself.
HOW do you know at the young age of 10 that life is just too hard to deal with and you want it to end? when i was 10 i'm pretty sure i was concerned with what we were having for snack that day... this world is so full of darkness and it hurts to see...we need to see Gods light.. and soon.

then bad got a little worse as i started struggling with where i was at in life with one of my best friends.. so i decided to take a break from that person and see where God is really directing me.. can i just say this has been one of the hardest things i have ever had to do? and the worst part is that I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!! God.. please direct me and open my eyes..

then bad got a little better because i ran and completed my first 1/2 marathon!! 13.1!!! BAM!
BUT there always have to be a bad side to things.. and....i injured my knee and i am still in pain after 9 days.. WHY? so i'm headed to the DR. tomorrow for him to tell me what i did:( pray for speedy healing because i have alot coming up that i need to be 100% for...

oh and to top it all off.. the people my roommate and i were planning on living with next year.. ya.. well they dumped us.. i feel so kicked to the curb it isn't even right.. ok not that bad but i have NO idea what next year holds for me.. its going to be a rollercoaster ride i think.

so that has been my past few weeks.. full of ups and downs and round and rounds..

i just continue to pray that God will show me his ultimate plan for my life...because right now.. i'm at a loss...

Friday, March 18, 2011

my handsome man!! from a year ago:)

Monday, February 28, 2011

Post 100!!

Well my dear friends, this is officially my 100th post.. how awesome is that????
So i've decided i'm going to just be posting my pictures and what not during the weekends or mondays or what ever.. but NOT every day.lol. sorry!
so on to this past week...
1. i started doing a little more running.. YAY ME! but i felt pretty gross and actually ended up getting sick:( bummer!!! BUT i did run 9.5 miles on friday..and i felt AWESOME! bring on these half marathons:)

2. Still reading my awesome devotion.. i love it!

3.
Quinoa and blueberries.. MMMM!
how awesome is this? it looks like a smiley face on the bottom of my peanut butter!! haha.
fish and tomatoes and much more.. soo yummy
a mess of coconut curry veggies, but it was REALLY tasty.
more food.. haha.. wanna guess what my week consisted of? eating, eating, and more eating would be correct..

WE GOT SNOW!!! about 4 inches to be exact..YAY!!
yup, i live on this stuff.. haha..
There is no place like home♥
alissa and i made the BEST peanut butter truffle brownies on earth!!
there has never been a more loving, more calm, more awesome animal on earth.. Aspen is my baby.. i picked her out of the puppies.. i named her.. i LOVE her.. haha.. yup, she makes me smile like nothing else can=]

so that was my week! kinda crazy.. kinda long.. but spring break is less than 2 weeks away. BAM!